cHeATEd

i feel the urge to dig my nails under my skin

this uneasy pAINful love i have for this person

the person i claimed to be the LOve of mY LiFE

disgusted angry sad disappointed

its so painful, its hurting everywhere over my body

its tainted and toxic

your arms you used to put around me has been all over someone else body

your heart-shaped lips you kissed me with has landed on someone else lips

its all so dirty now.

i hate all of these

but i can’t stop loving you after seeing your

voice

smell

face

eyes

12 days, 2 hours, 22 minutes

it was the start of our break to until the day you told me what you did

it broke mE

i cRiED in the shower, thinking what i could have done to stop that

what was done was already done

i just have to accept and overcome this traumatizing pain